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New Found Glory - Making of “Don’t Let Her Pull You Down”

And you are the reason people commit suicide

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 04:03:04 -0400

Maybe it is just me, am I too emotional? Am I too attached? Am I too afraid to be alone? Who knows especially not me but what I do know is that I am done ever trying to be friends with anyone ever and I do mean EVER again. I have known people for almost my entire life and for years done anything they wanted to make them happy even though I thought it was boring or stupid, and for what? All for nothing just so they can go and get little snotty friends that use them and don’t give two shits about how you feel or what you do and when push comes to shove wouldn’t even look back as they left you for dead. But for some dumb fucking reason I still think about you and care about you and wonder what I did wrong.

Or let’s take this scenario for a whirl. Girl has no friends, finds two other girls with few friends, they all become best friends. Late night game nights, bowling, birthday parties, all fun until one of them decides that they are going to start their life early and graduates before them. All was fine for a while, morning visits to the school to see them catch up and play cards, everything we always did. Then came the dreaded TATTOO! OH NO PLEASE NOT THAT! And everything changed not that I had changed or they had changed but a picture on skin made me a different person and apparently I wasn’t any fun anymore. I then didn’t talk to them for years until last August we got together one day to catch up and I was still the silly, goofy, straight edge, weird panted, band shirt wearing kid I had always been; and to be fair they dressed the same too but their personalities were nothing of the same. All they wanted to do was get so drunk that they couldn’t remember what happened and then talk about all the stupid things people said they did. What fun is that? Why would you want to purposely not remember what you did the night before? And that was the complete end of that.

And now for the most painful in my lovely series of events, losing what I actually considered to be the best (girl) friend I ever had. I am not going to lie, a drastic change in events proved to be better for all parties involved and it, to say the least devastated me, but I got over it quickly. I saw her be more excited and that made me happy, I was just so glad to see her enthused about life again. Now I haven’t known this girl for anywhere near as long as the others, but I felt as though I had known her for my entire life. We liked the same shows (and they were not shows that most adults like), we had the same types of hobbies, we both cared about bands so strongly that we would do anything help them out. If there are friend soul mates then she was mine. But now because I am still friends with all parties involved in this turn of events I must be the one running back and forth you know, creating more drama. UNTRUE to the fullest extent. I text and get no reply, I send shit online where she does all of her business with friends and nothing in return. But the biggest shocker is now I am blocked on twitter. I know make real friends but when your friends live their lives out on the internet and that is the way to communicate to them then it becomes a big deal. I had heard of things being written mainly accusing friends of causing her trouble, and while I have no proof besides the block that she assumed it was me, I know in my heart she does. So the only great friendship I have ever had in my entire life went down the drain because of the internet, and it’s ability to not be private no matter what. So I could tell her til I die that I didn’t do anything besides want her friendship but I doubt she will ever believe it.

So these are the three main things in my head constantly, I have been defriended so many times for the most trivial things ever and yes all of them bother me but these three really hurt the most. I think about the people everyday and wonder what it would have been like if we were still friends. I have been told it wasn’t me that people change but how could so many people just write me off so quickly?

Now do not get the title of this wrong I WILL NOT EVER KILL MYSELF, it was just a way to get the point across that not all people are strong enough to deal with so many rejections. I just can’t take anymore I can’t take another story to add to the massive amounts of pain I have in me already so I give up. The worst part of it all is that not a single person in this blog would I turn away if they came crawling back because I care about them all so much. None of them will ever read this anyway, so I guess since I am crying now I will just end this while I still have a tiny sliver of dignity left after all is gone.

well i would update this but alas no time so here is my so beutifully put update HELLO!

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 01:09:09 -0400

well i would update this but alas no time so here is my so beutifully put update HELLO!

NO cats lick the butter!

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 16:36:19 -0400

NO cats lick the butter!

stupid people

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 16:03:00 -0400

dear chipotle please hire people that can tell cheese from sour cream kthanx

Record Label Rant

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 19:14:43 -0400

So I was shuffling through some old ass AP mags this morning and I have come to the realization that Victory Records is pretty much the worst label in the world and I really wish their like 4 awesome bands would just release a whole bunch of albums just to get out of their contracts. If I could I would buy every band on there out of their contracts in a heartbeat. I came accross many ads for victory where they were pushing bands such as Atreyu, Silverstein, Hawthorne Heights, and Aiden and this was 2004-05. OKAY well those were your popular bands not denying that at all go for it, but what bothered me is that they would throw in all these meaningless, didn’t go anywhere, got dropped in less than a year bands but no mention of Bayside. Now yes I am a huge Bayside fan so I am probably blowing this out of proportion but just listen. Victory NEVER put Bayside in any ad for the label UNTIL they had the misfortune of losing their drummer in an accident. Now don’t that sound kinda funny like “Oh man this band had a terrible accident and lost a member, so listen to them out of pitty”. I mean it was the very next issue after it had happened, not even a few months or anything. And now Bayside is one of their “big names” and they don’t care about that, they (from my understanding) are still under contract for “Shudder” even though Bayside didn’t re-sign with them, but they don’t send them any cd’s to sell on tour but yet they can go and make new merch without the bands permission and sell it. WOW WAY TO GO VICTORY RECORDS, you are the biggest douchebags in the world. Now this is only one account of this, they have fucked over Atreyu, Hawthorne Heights, and I am sure a whole bunch of other bands. HH got out of it once I do believe but then went back, don’t understand that, but hey what ever. Atreyu couldn’t get out of their contract fast enough and yet they haven’t been on the label in years but still Victory is pushing them out there like last weeks lunch menu in an innercity school.

So if I could wish for anything that wouldn’t change the world or hurt anyone drastically, I would wish for bands like Silverstein, A day to remember, and any other band that takes music seriously and is on Victory to leave as soon as you can. There are a ton of other labels out there that will actually care for you and make you feel as though you are a viable asset to their company not just another flash in the pan that will make them money for the moment.

So I am Straight Edge and very proud of it but almost none of my...

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 16:21:03 -0400

So I am Straight Edge and very proud of it but almost none of my friends are and that is no big deal, after all it is my life not theirs. Well last week one of my non edge friends made the comment to my boyfriend that if he drank he would have more fun. This has bothered me for a week now and I just can’t let it go. Why would someone not drinking make you have less fun? I just can’t fatham a reason as to why he said this, I mean of that group of friends me and my bf are the only non drinkers but I didn’t know we were cramping your style. If anything you make our night (along with other drinkers) not fun because when you drink you get all depressed and then drink some more and make it much more worse, but would I ever go to you and tell you that no. I do get worried when my friends drink and drive but that is just something that I have always worried about since I was a kid and in a very bad accident with a drunk driver.

I don’t need to drink to have fun, and I thought ALL of my friends understood that and respected that but I guess my lifestyle is offending certain people and for that I am not sorry in the least bit. I honestly can say that even though you are an alcholic I am still friends with you so I thought the understanding was there but I guess not.

Maybe I should just give up what I believe in and start drinking and doing coke and oh maybe some heroine, would that make it better. Damn while I am at it do you want me to become repulican, join the military, and believe in god too.

Sorry I am just really pissed about this as I have never said “Oh man if you were edge you would be so much more fun”

Warped tour anxiety

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 06:43:00 -0400

Not really anxiety but I just need to go I can’t wait a whole year to experience the most awesome tour around they need to have more tours like this. I love cheap tickets with tons of bands and shit to do, I never find myself bored. This year is going to be fucking fantastic, Madina Lake, Bayside, A day to remember, underoath, Saosin, and We the Kings. The only thing that scares me is I have this utterly bad feeling that everyone I want to see will be playing at the same time, it’s happened before.

On a side note I can’t wait to see Silverstein and New found glory again

Also can’t wait for Blink in August or is it September lol maybe I should find that out

omg I love this picture it is just so terrific

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 06:33:10 -0400

omg I love this picture it is just so terrific

Why do I love lolcats so much I don’t know but I do nao...

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 16:32:24 -0400

Why do I love lolcats so much I don’t know but I do

nao gunna go eat cheezburger

bai!

Tattoos, Oh how I love thee

Fri, 29 May 2009 18:01:56 -0400

I will be getting my 3rd tattoo in less than a month on thursday and boy am I excited. This will make 11 for me and each get more and more awesome. Pretty soon I will have to be featured on the cover of magazines not just in the pages with individual pictures.

If you are ever in Toledo, OH make sure to stop by Body Design and get tattooed by Boomer.

http://www.myspace.com/bodydesigntattoo

Myspace has ruined music

Tue, 26 May 2009 20:13:05 -0400

Now don’t get me wrong I have found a lot of great bands through myspace but I have found 25 terrible bands for every good one on there. I am so tired of “oh listen to my band we sound like (insert well known band name here). I want to listen to them not you think of your own way to make music and try to do it that way I will be more likely to give you a chance. And all the damn scene bands out there with their bright ass shirts and tight pants with big hair that don’t even know what the hell they are playing, just because you semi know how to play an instrument doesn’t by any means make you a musician. I just read somewhere that if you love music you love myspace and that bothered me as I love music but I love music for the music not music for the bands and how they look. If I never saw a picture of a band and only heard the music I would still make the same decisions about their music as I would have with a picture. I hope that one day all the little “OH MY GOD HE IS SOOOO HOTTTTT” and the “I play guitar and started a band we sound like this” kids will go away I want my scene back and I can’t wait to see who prevails after myspace.